Ah Niu

This weekend is not going too well than I expected. Humpf!!

First, left my handphone in the office. Yes! Left my mobile in the office. I can’t imagine how many messages and missed calls… Blame it on me man!!

Then, some unfinished business!!!

And finally, unable to make to to SCSM 09… Sob Sob! Feel like tearing my hair out. I have so much anticipation on the event. Sigh….

It all started with him blocking my way, with arms wide open. His dad commented “He wants to be carried”. And so I did.

I carried my galfriend’s son and he sat on my lap, engrossed in television. And his cousin was having potato chips. He slide off my lap and went to get himself a chip. He was so cute!! And automatically, came up to me, climbed up the sofa and sat on my lap. He had his head leaning against my chest and he was sitting damn comfortably.

My galfriend was commenting that at least now he know his son is normal. Cos his son was doesn’t normally react in that way. I must say, my galfriend is damn cheeky too. She joking told her son, “wah! you clever boy.  Got yourself a auntie to carry you!”

By the end of the day, I pretended to bring the boy to my home and I even tell him to bade goodbye to his daddy and mummy. Boy!! He obedient said goodbye!! I almost fainted. When it was time to leave, he cried and hung onto me. Man!! What an unforgettable experience!!! = P

There’s certain decisions in life that we’ve made. Be it a wrong or a right one. There are consequences. It’s the natural law.

The problem is are we ready to face the consequences of our actions? Some thought they are able to bear it. But found it otherwise — too late.

Take for example Eminem. I’ve always adore him. Love his rap and got to know him when he was acting in ‘8 Miles’. The theme song "Lose yourself" is my favourite.

You can easily tell from the lyrics of his songs. For example, ‘When I’m Gone’. It told us a story of fame, which become a priority over his family.

It’s an illustration of a consequence as a result of his decision. Is he regretting? I guess so, with the lyrics in most of his song, I think he is. Maybe, he thought he could have handled the consequences when he made the decision. Time proves otherwise.

Life is sometimes ironic. Here’s a funny quote: "A celebrity is a person who works hard all his life to become well known, then wears dark glasses to avoid being recognized."

Eminen has not been cutting an alblum for quite some time. I hope he does in the future and I look forward to it.

Meanwhile, hope all my friend will not regret every decision that was made / is going to make. If you do, I hope you’re able to cope with the consequences.

Afterall, humans are infallible creatures. We are imperfect - that’s why we are not call God.

Today, is a busy day for month end closing. Despite the busy schedule, my colleague and I actually went down to watch basketball tournament organised by our company’s Recreation Club. We were only there for about ten mins or so. *Sob*

By the time we reached there, a game was almost finished with the Engineering team scoring 2 vs 0. Opps!!!

Next came another team. This time, it’s the QA vs production team. I saw this cute guy from QA who was really fair and tall. Probably he was too absorbed in the game. He actually tried to save the ball and had almost half of his body at the base of the movable hoop! Wow!! Such serious player.

And guess what? One spectator shouted ‘ Check the hoop to see if it’s okay. Then continue the game’ Wah, I was laughing my heads off man!! Since when was the last time I get to hear this kind of funny joke? Can’t remember.

But a pity, couldn’t stay for long. But the mere ten mins is enough to make my day!

I will try if possible, to make time to watch another ten mins of basketball match tomorrow. Shhh…. ; P

I’m so in love. With my niece. It’s like everytime I looked through the photos and videos, I can’t help smiling to myself. I might sound crazy.

I guess it’s natural and I’m pretty normal. Every toddler I see on the street, reminds me of her. I wonder why. Maybe cos I’m her aunt?

When I was 22 years old, I spotted a photograph of a Marketing Director’s niece and nephew in the office. I was wondering how on earth would she want to place such photograph then.

Now I understand.  It makes you smile and think of happy things naturally. Life itself is a miracle.

My colleague was commenting that I am becoming more motherly. I beg to differ though. I just wonder how much addiction would babies be to parents. Hmm…

Speaking of babies. Winnie, you’re pregnant hor. I wonder how cute is your baby going to be. Hahah.

Surely, can’t be cuter than my niece hor? ; P

Life is getting pretty comfortable nowadays. Except for some family issues, I guess I do not have any worries right now.

Lazy bones is still with me when I attempted to go church without success for two or three consecutive weeks.

I was trying out the Astrology section in Facebook. I’m not suppose to do that considering I’m a strong believer of Christianity. A hanged man card was in my ‘Desired’ card. It says:-

"This card denotes the need to look at your current situation from a different perspective. The Hanged Man creates change by acting passively and accepting fate. By surrendering control and making yourself vulnerable, you will facilitate change in your life. In order to see the bigger picture, you will need to take a step back.

When The High Priestess or Strength is among your personal cards, the influence of The Hanged Man may be increased. Having The Magus or Chariot in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Hanged Man."

This reminds me of Xana encouraging me some time ago, its good to take a step back. Thought I’ve been resigned way too much to fate? It’s not that I don’t believe in fate but there’s a balance in everything.

I’ll let God take control instead. Lord, give me wisdom, Amen.

Tomorrow is Monday. Monday blues… To put it more positively, today is Sunday!! How are you gonna to spend the day?

I’m going to spend my visiting the zoo. Not sure whether I will be taking any photos but I’ll try.

BTW, I found a white hair on my head last friday. An indication of aging!! ARRR!!!!! But what the heck, I should be I feeling good that at least I live that long to see my white hair grow???

I’m trying to be positive here. Think it’s a good start to change my mindset to being positive from indifference as my friend had observed. Maybe it’s true? Since when have each of us become so indifferent to things around us? I didn’t even realised that until it was mentioned. That got me thinking. Since when the indifference start? Hmmm…. That’s mind stimulating.

Since when OUR indifference start?

Just came back not long from Pulau Aur. And I’ve gotten sunburnt — at the back. Skin is peeling. Shouldn’t have gone into the sun with so miserable sunblock. Hopefully, the skin gonna be fine soon.

I’ve done so something which Xana commented its so unlike me — building sandcastles!!!! First time! Stef was trying to build it alone initally. Then, her ‘mentor’ came over and taught her a couple of tricks. I was curious. How much fun can sandcastle building be? Cos I saw Stef enjoying herself a lot.

Deciding to see for myself, I was involved in the sandcastle building project the very next morning. Man, we spend hours and the sandcastle was still there by the time we left Pulau Aur. Not too bad. As one member puts it, "We’ve left something in Pulau Aur!"

The trip’s not too bad except the four hours boat ride really kills me. I hate boat rides!!!

At last!! Light at the end of the tunnel. Wanna thank my dear gals & my family members for accompanying me during this time and thanks for your time and effort. Truely, it has drained most of our energies.

I do appreciate my love ones around me during this time. Thank you all.

Work has been busy and it’s time to realigned myself once again and see what I wanna do with my life. Besides God, work, gym, what else? Studies? Short-term break? Charity?

Shall pray about it. Anyhow, glad that I’m going for another short break in May. Resort again. But it’s great. Love the beach. Thinking of sun-tanning and lazing … hee… hee… Fantastic. Can’t wait for the day to come.

Time is slipping by every min. Next month is May and soon 2008 is gone, gone, gone!!! Do I sound I worry too much? Perhaps. Nothing seems to be accomplished, really. It’s time to do something before 2008 ends!!!

BUCK UP!!!!

I’ve got time to update my blog today. Reason is simple. I’m on MC again. Sick last Thursday, the last day of Chinese New Year. On 25th Feb, I’m down with cold and block nose. MC was given but didn’t utilised cos of closing. Now closing finished, I’ve vomitted and diarhoea three times yesterday. MC on 29 Feb 08. This year is a fantastic Feb. Last day of CNY, sick. Leap year of Feb, sick also. So damn lucky!

In a span of 9 days, I’ve visited the doc thrice. Broke my personal record. Wow!!! *sian*

I remember reading a Chinese horoscope predicting for those born in the year of sheep, to take care of health. Cos it ain’t a good year for health. Job wise, great. Health, no no. Cut down on outings and rest more at home as work takes away more engery from you. Well, my dear Xana and Steff?? You hear?! Hahaha… And Pauline too. Though not born in year of sheep, you also take care hor. Sad to say, I’m being to believe on the health aspect of the prediction.

At this present moment, I still hear my partner nagging me at the back of my head. "Remember to take your medicine. No fruit juice, no oily food, no chili, no coffee, no sour food, no cheese, no milk, no canteen food." Think I’m gonna survive on soups and noodles for the next two weeks. OMG!